Dude,
Since nothing is more impressive than being oneself, I am telling you this. Recently, one of you told me - "Ni career and personal life okati, ni friends tho life okati! Adhi gurtpetko! Dont overlap" (Your career and personal life should not overlap with life with friends). But you know what, that has never been possible for me. I've stayed away from home since the age of 6 and its 19 years and counting since then. Ofcourse I should be the hero of my life, but the main character in my life who has built me, moulded me and made me what I am today is this amazing God-sent messaih called friend. You've been the real hero of my life. We grew up together, ate, slept, played and lived together. You knew just as much as I did, or more (:respect) occassionally. But, our stay together has been a marvellous journey till now. A journey that I'll cherish forever.
I was neither the best guy in the class, nor the best sportsperson, nor the smartest, most charming or entertaining person at office, but you still managed to stay by me, play with me and support me when I needed a shoulder to rest on. Why were you so good to me? You were not just a friend, but everything to me. Whether at office or at room, college or hostel, my life has been filled with one or the assholes among you. My parents featured just for the 15min phone call I made to them every evening. I sincerely thank God for having introduced you to me. You didn't just come along and go by, but made a mark on my life. I was a boring, prejudiced moron with the least capacity to mingle with people. But now, there are some awesome traits I've imbibed from you, knowingly or unknowingly.
That living independently and living for a passion, a fervour can help one realize his dreams, Chaitanya you are a standing example dude. I feel so sorry for not having attended even one of your shows. I always wanted to, but never understood that rock/metal music.. I don't even know what to call it. But just to let you know, I always admired you and felt proud of you infront of so many other friends of mine. You cared the least for appreciation or laurels, but a strong desire to play the guitar. Bow dude. And Abilash, how could you be so nice... you cried with me when I cried and laughed with me when I laughed, always kept me lively, whether by mocking at me or praising me. I'll never forget that day you stood by me, when the whole batch turned against me. Thanks a ton man! Bharat, I am surely to learn to be simple like you man... irrespective of your knowledge or any status, you have the least ego and talk to me so caringly... Your presence itself in the room gives me a good feeling. Bhargav, my first friend at college, manchitananki kuda oka hadd untundi ra... Naku ishtamani bus ki ichi junnu paalu pampista annav... I was dumbstruck dude at your gesture!!! You are a gem.. And Vignesh, bro, my alterego, I so loved your company at college. We fought, we roamed, we ate, we played and I don't know what... every moment with you was so amazing... You patiently listened every shit I spoke, accompanied me in all my jobless bike rides, I can't choose examples from our several experiences to quote here, but every second with you was unforgettable and so much to learn from. Your childish pranks all through college lighten up my mood everytime I think of them.
And in office, two people that made my life here.. Dinesh and Yamini, you are the best thing that happened to me at CIQ. How could you be so kind to me inspite of all the childish and immature behaviour I showed towards you, specially in the last few days.. every day I showed you torture. My life at office has been an amazing experience over the past two years just because of you folks. I bugged you, I hated you, I envied you, I pestered you, I hurt you, but you know what, I also loved you guys.. and inspite of all that, you still called me your friend, included me in your fun and happiness... I don't know how to thank you. You made my life here folks. You showed me more nice people like Badram and Vamsi and proved that... kothawallani kalavakapothe, prapancham chinnadaipoddi.. More than all this, whether I liked it or not, because you cared for me... you moulded me, corrected me and taught me.. that I should be myself, be free and show the real Phani to the world, that self esteem and a self-sexy-confidence can bring the world to my feet, that I should take life easy and not read too much into every small thing. You reminded me that I am a tall, good looking and successful person, with great skills that not many have, that I am a kind of person people will come to, not run away from, that I should not judge myself too much and people will love me only once I start loving myself. I truly admire(I'm not getting synonymns) your approach to life guys... I've learnt so much for life... Your JLT(Just Like That) theorem and the paradigm of randomness is surely going to lighten me up when I am down. Every photo that we took, every moment we spent gives me a euphoria, not happiness when I revisit them.
Now all you assholes are leaving at once. Why does God have to be so rude to me.. taking all of you at once away.. I hate August 2014, for all my best buddies are leaving me, including my closest and first friend of my life - my little sister, even she is being taken away by this idiotic institution called marriage - like Rakesh and Radha.. Ofcourse, each of you have your own goals and ambitions in life, but I feel sad for we can no longer stay, eat and drink together. Surely, life is not going to be the same.. It'll be really bad without you folks, because, till now you were my life.. whether at work or home - dawn to dusk. Fun in room, friday night ge-ttogethers, drinking and eating at home, baby doll dances, fun in the gym or office, long drives, gokarting, ice creams, idli at inorbit, fighting with my sister, whatever... it will be different and I've to accept it.. Ofcourse, Life lo edaina alwataipoddi.. just got to give it time.
Finally, I want to say two things.. Firstly, I am really sorry for having been an idiot at several times, intruding into your privacy and personal lives.. You were my life, personal and professional and I was mistaken to expect the same from you too.. I've only realized now that each of you have your life to lead and I should find mine. I never meant to hurt you, but I still thank you for having understood me in those situations.. I was not curious to know what you are doing, but only wanted to spend more time with you.. because, I had nothing but friends in life. And secondly, I will always be here in Hyderabad, buy a car, home and settle down. You were always a part of my family, and so if you or your parents need anything back here, remember I am always there for you. Any help - financial, moral, personal or anything I can do for that matter, I am just a call away.
I once thought that if I fight with each of you so badly that I hate you for life, and I don't feel bad when you leave. But, even that didn't work out, because I could not fight you. Whether you like it or not and whatever you might call me, gay straight or bisexual.. I loved and will love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.. no from deeper... bottom of my ass... because the last 19 years of my life was mainly friends... But atleast I thank God he is leaving some of you back with me... Those who are leaving, you better stay in touch wherever you are.. I'll buy a Nokia phone with Vodafone connection and will follow you wherever you go.. because, we are friends for life, we live together we die together wherever we are!!! And those who are staying back, we'll enjoy so much that these guys will feel jealous of us :P
I am already in tears and can write no further, nor read what I a m writing..
Fuck you assholes.. Good bye!
Since nothing is more impressive than being oneself, I am telling you this. Recently, one of you told me - "Ni career and personal life okati, ni friends tho life okati! Adhi gurtpetko! Dont overlap" (Your career and personal life should not overlap with life with friends). But you know what, that has never been possible for me. I've stayed away from home since the age of 6 and its 19 years and counting since then. Ofcourse I should be the hero of my life, but the main character in my life who has built me, moulded me and made me what I am today is this amazing God-sent messaih called friend. You've been the real hero of my life. We grew up together, ate, slept, played and lived together. You knew just as much as I did, or more (:respect) occassionally. But, our stay together has been a marvellous journey till now. A journey that I'll cherish forever.
I was neither the best guy in the class, nor the best sportsperson, nor the smartest, most charming or entertaining person at office, but you still managed to stay by me, play with me and support me when I needed a shoulder to rest on. Why were you so good to me? You were not just a friend, but everything to me. Whether at office or at room, college or hostel, my life has been filled with one or the assholes among you. My parents featured just for the 15min phone call I made to them every evening. I sincerely thank God for having introduced you to me. You didn't just come along and go by, but made a mark on my life. I was a boring, prejudiced moron with the least capacity to mingle with people. But now, there are some awesome traits I've imbibed from you, knowingly or unknowingly.
That living independently and living for a passion, a fervour can help one realize his dreams, Chaitanya you are a standing example dude. I feel so sorry for not having attended even one of your shows. I always wanted to, but never understood that rock/metal music.. I don't even know what to call it. But just to let you know, I always admired you and felt proud of you infront of so many other friends of mine. You cared the least for appreciation or laurels, but a strong desire to play the guitar. Bow dude. And Abilash, how could you be so nice... you cried with me when I cried and laughed with me when I laughed, always kept me lively, whether by mocking at me or praising me. I'll never forget that day you stood by me, when the whole batch turned against me. Thanks a ton man! Bharat, I am surely to learn to be simple like you man... irrespective of your knowledge or any status, you have the least ego and talk to me so caringly... Your presence itself in the room gives me a good feeling. Bhargav, my first friend at college, manchitananki kuda oka hadd untundi ra... Naku ishtamani bus ki ichi junnu paalu pampista annav... I was dumbstruck dude at your gesture!!! You are a gem.. And Vignesh, bro, my alterego, I so loved your company at college. We fought, we roamed, we ate, we played and I don't know what... every moment with you was so amazing... You patiently listened every shit I spoke, accompanied me in all my jobless bike rides, I can't choose examples from our several experiences to quote here, but every second with you was unforgettable and so much to learn from. Your childish pranks all through college lighten up my mood everytime I think of them.
And in office, two people that made my life here.. Dinesh and Yamini, you are the best thing that happened to me at CIQ. How could you be so kind to me inspite of all the childish and immature behaviour I showed towards you, specially in the last few days.. every day I showed you torture. My life at office has been an amazing experience over the past two years just because of you folks. I bugged you, I hated you, I envied you, I pestered you, I hurt you, but you know what, I also loved you guys.. and inspite of all that, you still called me your friend, included me in your fun and happiness... I don't know how to thank you. You made my life here folks. You showed me more nice people like Badram and Vamsi and proved that... kothawallani kalavakapothe, prapancham chinnadaipoddi.. More than all this, whether I liked it or not, because you cared for me... you moulded me, corrected me and taught me.. that I should be myself, be free and show the real Phani to the world, that self esteem and a self-sexy-confidence can bring the world to my feet, that I should take life easy and not read too much into every small thing. You reminded me that I am a tall, good looking and successful person, with great skills that not many have, that I am a kind of person people will come to, not run away from, that I should not judge myself too much and people will love me only once I start loving myself. I truly admire(I'm not getting synonymns) your approach to life guys... I've learnt so much for life... Your JLT(Just Like That) theorem and the paradigm of randomness is surely going to lighten me up when I am down. Every photo that we took, every moment we spent gives me a euphoria, not happiness when I revisit them.
Now all you assholes are leaving at once. Why does God have to be so rude to me.. taking all of you at once away.. I hate August 2014, for all my best buddies are leaving me, including my closest and first friend of my life - my little sister, even she is being taken away by this idiotic institution called marriage - like Rakesh and Radha.. Ofcourse, each of you have your own goals and ambitions in life, but I feel sad for we can no longer stay, eat and drink together. Surely, life is not going to be the same.. It'll be really bad without you folks, because, till now you were my life.. whether at work or home - dawn to dusk. Fun in room, friday night ge-ttogethers, drinking and eating at home, baby doll dances, fun in the gym or office, long drives, gokarting, ice creams, idli at inorbit, fighting with my sister, whatever... it will be different and I've to accept it.. Ofcourse, Life lo edaina alwataipoddi.. just got to give it time.
Finally, I want to say two things.. Firstly, I am really sorry for having been an idiot at several times, intruding into your privacy and personal lives.. You were my life, personal and professional and I was mistaken to expect the same from you too.. I've only realized now that each of you have your life to lead and I should find mine. I never meant to hurt you, but I still thank you for having understood me in those situations.. I was not curious to know what you are doing, but only wanted to spend more time with you.. because, I had nothing but friends in life. And secondly, I will always be here in Hyderabad, buy a car, home and settle down. You were always a part of my family, and so if you or your parents need anything back here, remember I am always there for you. Any help - financial, moral, personal or anything I can do for that matter, I am just a call away.
I once thought that if I fight with each of you so badly that I hate you for life, and I don't feel bad when you leave. But, even that didn't work out, because I could not fight you. Whether you like it or not and whatever you might call me, gay straight or bisexual.. I loved and will love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.. no from deeper... bottom of my ass... because the last 19 years of my life was mainly friends... But atleast I thank God he is leaving some of you back with me... Those who are leaving, you better stay in touch wherever you are.. I'll buy a Nokia phone with Vodafone connection and will follow you wherever you go.. because, we are friends for life, we live together we die together wherever we are!!! And those who are staying back, we'll enjoy so much that these guys will feel jealous of us :P
I am already in tears and can write no further, nor read what I a m writing..
Fuck you assholes.. Good bye!
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